2009-05-09 - 2:26 a.m.
I just switched off my phones, logged off msn and closed my room door.
I know it's late. I know I have an appointment early in the morning tomorrow. But I refuse to sleep.
Yeah, one of those days when I'm just throwing my tantrums. And throwing them on myself.
Been feeling stuffy since the afternoon.
In case you're wondering, nothing major happened.
I let myself take a break for the afternoon when I came back from Eunos.
I really wanted to shop till I drop. For those who don't know, I haven't had the chance to shop since UBER long ago.
Actually a few days ago, I already felt the desperate need for retail therapy. So I asked Shan for the website but the website didn't have much.
Actually maybe it wasn't retail therapy that I needed.
Maybe I just needed to give myself a little bit of time to do things I liked in the past.
Maybe I just need a little bit of me-time.
Last Saturday, I went ktv-ing. Thank you for being there. I miss those times I can just heck it and anyhow sing. I used to be only be able to do it in front of her. But I was able to do it that day with you too. And sing whatever songs I really loved but sometimes avoid singing.
It felt good but it was short-lived.
She was talking to me about you but I really don't know. Maybe I'm tired, maybe I don't have the energy to care that much.
And you're still on my mind. I'm still wondering where you went to. You really listened to me so much the other time that I could not imagine how after that you can disappear like in the past again.
She was really happy when she saw the present. Very glad about it, especially after the incident that happened just last week.
I wonder if you are okay, but since you are not replying at all, I guess there's nothing I can do.
And I don't like the feeling of it seeming to change now.
I know, I should be blogging when I'm in better moods, which honestly happened pretty often recently. But somehow I only think of blogging when I feel like venting.
This is completely a grumbly entry. I probably will look back on this entry and feel dumb or even delete it.
Well but for now, heck it.