2009-02-28 - 3:01 a.m.
I know I should be sleeping now.
Had a long long talk, until you had to cab back.
We came to a decision, something I had expected, something I had decided earlier.
Everyone else tells me to scold you. But I didn't. I merely asked you to be more sensitive in future.
I asked you almost everything. Mh says she applauds me for being so honest, but no, I really plucked up a million buckets of courage to ask you the things I asked.
Yet when I needed you to be honest with me, you refused to.
You just kept telling me you're confused. And just refused to tell me more.
I asked you why you did that, you said you don't know. I asked you whether it's the same for others, you said it's not.
Why can't you just tell me no lar, I'd do the same for others.
Maybe I'd feel better now.
You tell me later on msn you had your reasons for not getting involved. And you refused to tell me what it was.
You really scared the hell out of me with the last revelation. I was honestly honestly worried. And until now I still am. And that's why I'm still here.
I do feel lighter after asking the things I needed to know about. But, the fact that I didn't get proper answers from you and the frightening revelation you told me about made my mind go in a whirl again.
You had made the decision for me just now. I make it now myself.
You made the decision because you heard me say I was afraid of getting hurt further. I make the decision now because I already am.
I know I need to get out of this. And I will.
I won't cry anymore.