2008-07-31 - 4:31 p.m.
Now that I'm getting really close to it, I start feeling the jitters.
I tell myself it's this 3 months worth of chance that I'm giving myself. That I'll give myself this chance to try this thing that I've been wanting to do ever since my second year in university.
3 months...doesn't sound very long, does it? Anyway, it's not that I'm planning to quit after 3 months, it's just that my interviewer said 3 months is good enough to see for yourself if you're really suitable.
In fact, this is more than what I wanted to do. I thought of starting small, like maybe join the consumer banking departments to have a taste of what it's like to be in sales positions or join an ordinary insurance company and start from there. But this opportunity came, and the future prospects of it is much much more attractive than I thought. Provided I continue till the future, that is. Which is why I think I'm feeling worried. That I really want to do it well, but I'm afraid of my own personal obstacles.
While I hear of my fellow peers taking on jobs at banks, operations-related and blah blah, I start thinking, maybe I should have gone on the safety track like them. But, I didn't even dare to commit myself when the other opportunity came the other time.
Oh well.
Maybe I'm being a little ambitious here. But I think this is one of the few times in my life I really let myself follow my heart, instead of my head. Oh gosh, not sure if it's a good thing.
Too late for regrets now anyway right? So, I guess I'll just go for it. 3 months later and we'll see yeah.
Alright, I just had to let that out. Has been troubling me for the past few days. Back to happier matters, I really enjoyed myself these two weeks. With convocation and convocation ball and birthday celebrations. =)
22 July 2008 was our big big day. None of us getting married though. LOL. The feeling of being a graduate really came on that day, after we put on our gigantic robes and heavy mortarboards (or murtabaks, HAHA). It was a day of frenzy, from the beginning where we struggled with our robes and safety pins and hairclips in the toilets to after the ceremony where we grabbed every familiar face to take pictures with.
During the ceremony, I was bored. But I think everyone was. Especially during the speeches. Haha, the girl beside me and I were counting down to the last alphabet throughout the ceremony. HAHA. Probably everyone else was doing the same because everyone clapped super loudly for the last girl.
My dad actually brought a handycam, hoping to take a video of me going onstage to get my certificate (which ended up being only an empty file.haha). But guess what, just when I was about to start walking, the handycam went auto-off. HAHA. Oh man, mei you yuan.
Okay, pictures time! Me! Graduated and holding the very cute convo bear bear! Keke. 
Me and my parents...they kinda don't like smiling..haha
The five of us. I still think it's amazing we remained as close as when we were in secondary school. Best part is we graduated together! Hehe. Friends forever yeah! =) 
With Daniel, classmate for a lot of classes so he's like everywhere all the time! And Kane, Financial Modelling groupmate! So glad we all S/U-ed so we had the equally heck-care attitude! HAHA. 
Equities groupmates! Project was fun, especially with playing of Cake Mania halfway through. LOL. 
Woonteng, the very smart but very friendly classmate at AB005! With a lot of miscelleneous Harry Potters at the back. HAHA. 
Wah, I realised I got so many pictures it's going to make my entry super long. So, I shall end here. More pictures on facebook, later on!
Oh by the way, sp, my parents commented that it's the first time they see you so high. Haha, see lar, you gave them too much of the false impression that you're a quiet girl. LOL.
S4 with all the tutorial rooms I frequent more often in Year 1 and for core modules. 
S3 with all the seminar rooms I go to mostly for the BnF modules. 
Staircase up to..........OUR FAVORITE FAL!!!! Haha, reminds me of the many many many project meetings there...
In front of MLT...oh no no...LKCLT...alamak I'm still not used to that name. Haha. I blinked in the picture...but well..
Haha, I said I wanted to stop uploading pictures but I couldn't help it.
Will I miss NTU? I think I will. Not that I feel super attached to the school. I just feel it's such an abrupt end to my schooling life that I'll absolutely miss it like crazy. It really feels like yesterday to me that I just stepped into the school with that map and looking frantically for my tutorial rooms. Even my uncle commented that it felt like a while ago that he drove me to my hall to move all my belongings there in the first year. Yes, hall. I came in with all enthusiasm, hoping to enjoy hall life and our so er ren shi jie with Est (Lol). Some things happened in the middle of it, so I moved out. Some unhappiness which I now feel I should have beared with but it doesn't matter anymore because it's over. Nevertheless, the three years really made me grow a lot. I was like how scared of presentations in the past, so that became my biggest worry before I entered NTU Business. But, after the three years, I really feel much more comfortable. How not to be when you have presentations almost all the time right.
I remember Shan commenting that it feels like we have just started feeling comfortable and confident in school but now we have to leave already. I agree totally with that. Abrupt, to me, is the best word to describe it. I didn't imagine myself to graduate so fast at all. Feels like there were a thousand more things I could have done in school as well. Nevertheless, I did things I wanted to do in my 3 years. I learnt to be more confident; I made new friends; I joined in as a volunteer (though now no longer very regular, but I really enjoyed it in the past); I engaged myself in AROW...blah blah.
I had happy project meetings; I had unhappy ones. Thinking back about the latter ones, I feel I was being rather childish, having too high expectations of everyone else without reflecting upon myself. So yeah, I choose to remember all of them as happy ones now because after all, we pulled through the projects, met with the deadlines and came up with really good stuffs!
我们真的毕业了！
Okay, one last picture for convo, my cute cute convo bear bear! AHHS~~ okays, convo bear bear is her name now. Sp's gonna say that's not much creativity but it's easier to remember! HAHA. 
Alright, next up! Convocation ball!!! 
Three of us arrived at Fullerton. 
Initially, I wasn't very excited about it because most of the people I know in NBS are not going. But turned out not bad! Still managed to take photos with more people than I expected! Our table turned out super happening because the rest came in funky costumes! We had the Best Well-Dressed Gentleman and Lady both at our table! 
The food was good!!! 
me and shan! 
me and sp!! 
me and dum
自拍 of my hair for the night. I think it's not bad. Initially I think the person just wanted to curl my hair and leave it as that, I looked like some siao char bor lar. So I requested for her to clip it up. The curls and hairspray made my hair really dry the next day, and I counted 12 hairpins! 
Again, more pictures on facebook lar ar. I'm getting tired...
Next, birthday celebration for hz! Oh, before that, shopping for present for her at Marina Square! It was the day after I had my last paper. Was feeling quite tired because I woke up really early that day to study (er, rather last minute HAHA). But this shop at Marina Square made me quite high! It's called Cactus, very near to the Kbox at Marina Square. It has got interesting stuffs! We bought a MP3 necklace from there for the birthday girl in the end. It looks like a thumbdrive! Really small! But very useful for joggers! Can just hang around your neck and jog to your favourite music! And we saw really cute soft toys which are designed according to horoscopes! For me, the soft toy was named 'Numero' but they insisted I should take the one named 'Blur Blur'. BAAAHHHSS. Haha
Anyway, the shop took us down as VIP customers. I think it's because we went into the shop like 3 times, and 2 times we bought something. They even took pictures of us and say want to put in their shop and label us as VIPs! LOL. They're quite nice people, think they're new so they have all sorts of funny perks for customers now. Do check it out if you're in Marina Square yeah!
Oh, and sorry for no photos. HAHA. The shop owners took photos of us but I don't think they've sent Geri yet.
Went to MOF for dinner. Service there was good! Except a screw-up halfway through at another table, where a pot of tea broke in the hands of a waitress. Poor girl, she must have panicked. But anyway, they take initiatives in taking photographs for us and in making recommendations so I'm happy! '
My ramen, with fried chicken. But I didn't really like it. Haiz, should have just ordered soba. 
See! Bern's one looks SOOOO good! I tried it, not bad! But I still prefer the cold soba at Ichiban Boshi's. =) 
Halfway through, the two girls abandoned me in the restaurant to go outside and take photographs of the sky. The photos they took were very nice!
Anyway, after that, we went to KBOX!!! Super shiok! Geri is like super good at harmonising!!! Made our singing sound much nicer! Lol. And she can reach the high notes so I keep passing to her whenever I feel my voice is going. Haha.
Cam-whored before we started the singing. 
Huizhen's birthday celebration was yesterday. Started the day with us roaming around Esplanade-City Hall area to take pictures in our convocation gowns. Thanks to Jinchao for helping us take very pretty photographs! I haven't gotten them, but can trust his skills! Was worried my day would be spoilt because I had diarrheoa 3 times before that. Not sure if it's the laksa I had before that. Bahs. Luckily I found my wonder pill in Guardian so it got better! Anyway, halfway through, we got really tired because of the scorching sun and killer heels. And stupid me forgot to bring slippers to change into, so I only could look in envy while they changed comfortably into their slippers. BAH. Anyway, we became somewhat like mascots of Singapore because tourists kept taking photographs of us in our gowns. Most were shy so they took secretly from the side but we all noticed. HAHA but this group of tourist from China openly asked us to take with them. Haha, so we did. Thought it'll be one, two photos but turned out to be 10s, 20s, 30s, 50s? They took REALLY A LOT! Haha, so after that, we came to the conclusion that we don't need to look for jobs le, just set up a booth in Esplanade Park and charge people for taking photos with us in our gowns! HAHA. GOOD MONEY ok! We would have earned 100over bucks just with the China tourists! LOL.
Had dinner at this place called 'Seasons Reasons' (or something like that, I can't really remember the name) at Raffles City. Decided to eat there because we were too tired to walk to Marina Square or Suntec. HAHA. Food was...erm...not very to my liking.
I had this: Ketchup Spaghetti Goreng with Mussels and Shrimps. 
The spaghetti had this weird taste. I don't know how to describe. It's quite disturbing to me, so I left like half the noodles there before I left. But the prawns were good! And they like no need money one...throw so many prawns inside...
We concluded that only Shan's and hz's fish and chips was worth the money. The wedges were really good and fish was quite nice too. 
The birthday cake! A bit small! But it's the thought that counts! Keke. 
The birthday girl!!! 
Making her wish!! 
Guessing what her present is! 
Ended the night pretty early. Think we were all tired already. Was real fun reminiscing with the girls about IJ times. Super funny how they never remembered who their Geography teacher was in Sec 3! Haha, poor teacher! Geri, we not bad ar...at least we remember Jo Teo and Mag Low pretty well. HAHA. Shan was super funny in reenacting the scene from Helen Ng's class. 'Lava coming out...' LOL! Made me laugh like crazy. Can't imagine how funny Geography lessons can get. HAHA.
Alright, think I'm not feeling that tired so I'll post pictures on fb now! Keke!