2005-09-06 - 11:32 p.m.
i haf no mood to do my econs tut at all.
basically coz i dont understand a thing..i almost dont know anything in the notes.its one of those lects where i almost slept thru out.too lazy now to go fig out everything in the notes.
hmm had a pretty bad week last week. went thru all the emotional ups and downs. but it's all over. and im glad this week is a little better.
im really so glad i haf her in my life. she had alw been there for me all these years. no matter what she was doing, once i said i needed someone to talk to, her call would come. i didn't expect myself to feel so horrible last fri. i thought i was just feeling a little frustrated. yet, i cried seconds after i called her. the tears juz flowed..i think i scared her. but i scared myself too. but i really felt so much better aft the call. Very much better.
thanks for reminding me tht i still haf u guys with me. thanks so much, mayhui. even though im not even sure if u read this..since u get so little access to internet. love u girl. thanks.. and still thanks.
funny how i thought i could manage on my own. kept things to myself for pretty long..told myself nt to let my tears flow for a few times. and i did. but only made it worse. so i learnt. letting it out really makes it better. just like what yx told me in the msg. yupz i understand le girl. aft thinking thru it. thanks.
im scared of getting sick again aft the previous round. so ppl, pls bring all the spicy stuff away frm me! haha. my doc specifically told me to avoid spicy food. think i had too much of it.
not sure if it was an impulsive decision or not. to decide to move out.
im feeling so guilty now.
thought it was ok since she said she can stay with her friend. but right after i sent in my withdrawal le..then she tells me she dont wan to stay with tht person. now the ppl i've been asking are saying they dont wan to stay hall too.
i know how lousy it feels to stay alone.. im sorry girl!
i'll do my best to find u another roommate..really really sorry..
so i ended my hall life. haha pretty fast. heard i shocked yx. haha sorrie girl. i shocked myself too..din expect myself to not get used to it. lol.
gonna go for supper with yf dum and yx on thurs night. and they're gonna eat stingray! ok. no. control. haiz.
the rest of the week wont be tht bad! esp with the holiday week coming. :P