2006-04-17 - 7:20 p.m.
When i saw the message, my heart sank.
Dear God, please please please dont take her away from us.
But I think I know..it's near impossible. The doctor says she's only left with 1-2 months.
Why like this..why do U want to torture a person who's so perfect..and upset those around her..
I've alw felt lucky my entire life. Almost everything I do is smooth-sailing. And I know that's because God is guiding me. God is paving the way for me. But now, if I cld choose, I'd rather God make things more smooth-sailing for her than for me.
No, im not scolding God for the way He's taking her away from us. I just think she's so much a better person than me that i dont think i deserve more than her.
But yx says maybe it's because she's so perfect that God wants her to accompany Him.
Maybe.
Like yx said, there's nothing we can probably do now except to make her feel happier.
Shufang, we all love you.
Hopefully, when I visit her later this week, I can tell her that without crying because I wouldn't want her to feel even more upset.
And Eileen loves all of you. You, the one reading this right now. Please dont let anything happen to any of you because I won't be able to take it.
I love you all.
Oh and do look at this.
may all of you be blessed.